Do you ever feel like no matter how hard you work at something, it doesnt make a difference? This applies to many aspects of my life. From cleaning (The 1 load of laundry I just did, magically produced 3 more needing done) to personal matters (relationships with friends, family, and my faith). Eventually, all the time and energy Ive invested, is thrown out the window because it gets so overwhelming, I just give up. This is a constant struggle for me. But Ive really been working at not letting it happen.
Ive always heard that Sagittarius' are known for being optimistic. And 5 years ago, i can say that I looked at everything as the glass is half full. Its a great way to pursue life, but not realistic. Now Ive kind of learned to just call things for what they really are. It seems to make everything easier to accept. Not having any expectations=no hard feelings in the end. And this doesnt mean that I dont enjoy things or am "debbie downer" I think its my way of LETTING myself enjoy life without that voice in the back of my head telling me its just a matter of time before it all comes crashing down. But I think there are concequences to my way of thinking. Am I holding back when I do this? Am I really allowing myself to be completely and 100% happy? Because, sometimes, even with my new outlook, at the end of the, I still feel slightly empty.
Im famous for telling people "God wont give you more than you can handle" or "Give God your worries and He will take care of them for you" Sometimes I wonder why I dont follow my own advice. The words are very true, and I know this :) Its my inner control freak taking hold of me I think. Its just been one of those days. lol. I blame it on the time change and it being Monday.
Tuesday, February 23, 2010
Thursday, February 18, 2010
Spring is just around the corner!
Im starting to see birds outside again, which means warm weather is coming! Though, I will say, i saw a little bit of snow flurries on my way to work this morning. Boo. I think everyone in my house is going stir crazy, and we are ready to be able to go outside to play again!
I finally got back my test results back. I have celiac disease, which is just basically a gluten intolerence. Although Im glad to finally have an answer to the problem......gluten is in the majority of food. Its hereditary, and given Emmas stomach problems, its a given she has it also. So we follow a gluten free diet. I was really bummed to begin with, but the more I learn about food, its not so bad. There are tons of gluten free food, and recipes. Theres no medicine for it, just a lifetime without gluten lol.
Our trip to Tulsa was a blast. It was a much needed getaway. I hadnt been back there for 9 years. Which is crazy to think about. And out of all my friends from there, Sammi is the only one Ive seen since I moved, and that has been only once. Its pretty amazing that we all seemed to pick up right where we left off, just like I never left. I was fully prepared for there to be some awkward moments, or times when no one had anything to talk about....but it was far from that. The girls had so much fun too. I was a little nervous about our first road trip together. But they did really good. They slept on the car ride there, and home. They got along with Sammi's kids, and slept good at night, and nap time, which was a huge concern for me. I know we are definately capable of doing more things like this together now :)
It has been a little chaotic since we got home form Tulsa. I feel like I cant seem to get caught up on my housework. Which is funny to me, because instead of doing it, I am sitting here at the computer. Maybe I shouldnt complain about it being dirty lol. We have been super busy with Emmas dance class, and church, and our saturday brunch. Ive had to meet Emmas dad halfway in AR this past weekend for her visit. I am thankful that we get to do all these things, but I really would like one day where I have NOTHING to do. That is my plan for this weekend. Or maybe at least shoot for that Saturday. Sunday is my friends baby shower, which I am super excited for. She is having a girl, and I can totally handle the girl stuff. Emma asked me when my friend first found out that she was pregnant, if I could have a baby in my tummy for her....because there was a new baby at daycare. I was a little shocked to say the least. I told her that mommy wasnt going to have any babies, but Miss Kayla would have one for us. She seemed to be content with that answer. So everytime we see Kayla, Emma asks how her baby is, and if she can feel her move. She loves to buy stuff for her, and talks about her. Its quite cute..and sad all at the same time.
Tomorrow night, is our first womens meeting outside our Wednesday night class at church. I am really excited and happy with everyone that decided to continue meeting. Wish me luck!
I finally got back my test results back. I have celiac disease, which is just basically a gluten intolerence. Although Im glad to finally have an answer to the problem......gluten is in the majority of food. Its hereditary, and given Emmas stomach problems, its a given she has it also. So we follow a gluten free diet. I was really bummed to begin with, but the more I learn about food, its not so bad. There are tons of gluten free food, and recipes. Theres no medicine for it, just a lifetime without gluten lol.
Our trip to Tulsa was a blast. It was a much needed getaway. I hadnt been back there for 9 years. Which is crazy to think about. And out of all my friends from there, Sammi is the only one Ive seen since I moved, and that has been only once. Its pretty amazing that we all seemed to pick up right where we left off, just like I never left. I was fully prepared for there to be some awkward moments, or times when no one had anything to talk about....but it was far from that. The girls had so much fun too. I was a little nervous about our first road trip together. But they did really good. They slept on the car ride there, and home. They got along with Sammi's kids, and slept good at night, and nap time, which was a huge concern for me. I know we are definately capable of doing more things like this together now :)
It has been a little chaotic since we got home form Tulsa. I feel like I cant seem to get caught up on my housework. Which is funny to me, because instead of doing it, I am sitting here at the computer. Maybe I shouldnt complain about it being dirty lol. We have been super busy with Emmas dance class, and church, and our saturday brunch. Ive had to meet Emmas dad halfway in AR this past weekend for her visit. I am thankful that we get to do all these things, but I really would like one day where I have NOTHING to do. That is my plan for this weekend. Or maybe at least shoot for that Saturday. Sunday is my friends baby shower, which I am super excited for. She is having a girl, and I can totally handle the girl stuff. Emma asked me when my friend first found out that she was pregnant, if I could have a baby in my tummy for her....because there was a new baby at daycare. I was a little shocked to say the least. I told her that mommy wasnt going to have any babies, but Miss Kayla would have one for us. She seemed to be content with that answer. So everytime we see Kayla, Emma asks how her baby is, and if she can feel her move. She loves to buy stuff for her, and talks about her. Its quite cute..and sad all at the same time.
Tomorrow night, is our first womens meeting outside our Wednesday night class at church. I am really excited and happy with everyone that decided to continue meeting. Wish me luck!
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